No longer have the place in ur heart... feeling down

is like so many of peaceful day but spoiled at today... mood change fml really like wat I post I hav ask before I post... how shit itis! u heart pain for him then who heart pain for mii?... who is jealous now??? hai I really donno y peaceful cant last...

spotted posting tink here. .. nth much I can say here le...but seen u r here then I shell write sth just for u

u may tink I change to another person... but no is u don trust mii u only believe other n listen to them ask tat come n say mii... hab u tink how will I feel? hav u tink any story behind. . u know im hrut but u still none stop hurting. . isit becoz is free tat y u cant stop?..funny tink is
no matter how u  say I still love u alot... alot alot more...

I shell guess tat u r with him now.... u say u wanted to come but my door was lock... tonight shellmtry unlock n see anytink happen while im sleeping... I donno will u be sleeoing beside mii kissing mii or hugging mii for the last... there is alway a worry along everytink... but the most worry was... 你跑道我心里打了个死结。。。把自己封在里面,没人能打开。。。现在的我好想见到你,我好多 好多 天没看到你了。。。我好辛苦,你好残忍。。。

你已经不理我了。。。可能这就是你要,好好照顾自己我会担心你。。。 :'( 眼泪有不听話了。。。

I found out sth more... I lost the feel of laugh... it should be a funny video I feel tat is funny but y im not laughing at all... ... ... im lost..

on my way home now. . feeling still the same I miss u a lot. .. keep wanted to text u but I hav to force myself not to...我好辛苦:(  I donno is this part of growing up... I only know this is not a normal pain... maybe u r with him happily hai... wat can I do yo wan u back.. I don wan u to be so close with him... but nth I can do... :'(

我好想你。。。边工作边想你。。。我掉眼泪了。。。。

once again is sharp n painful... n u just happily don even care anytink... if he don jio u out becoz of his fucking phone we would be just finish our sushi n shopping happily..
 but wat to do.. he got a ok from u but mii? just a see 1st... n alway a see 1st nvm isok soon coming sat I will be free n alone not going to batam with them n I can drink all I wan...drank mii pls... tonight gone finsh my few cane... if not I donno how I pass my night... some more really gotOT now... shag...

once again. .. late in the midnight im shock to awake... a scary dream tat I don wish it will happen... ur wedding. .. but not mii..hai I really tink alot alot im just afraid to lose u.. bur can do? nomatter how I change u just ues ur word n rain mii down...is ok maybe tst ur true word... I justdknow I llove u but ur word hurt mii like helll..

today... 3rd aug... 8day counted from our zoo trip... this 8day nv hav we been tgt for more the 48hr I only know miss u alot. .. don even feel like eating just stone for time tat is for myself... im sorry tat I thought u I wont drink is anything happen to us... but this in the only I can feel abit relax... I donno how much I can drink but I just hope it can drank mii down
.. this is my life. . tat it le... ...

我真的好舍不得你。。。I hav no choice but to force myself to bluff u wat OT shit.... is really difficult for mii to stand in this place now... other then leaving nth must I can really do... really it really painful but I cant say out I hav to keep to myself hav to see how much more I can take it.. but I know im down to depression. .. I donno wat to do I feel the stress I feel tat u r going more more away from mii... but... I just donno wat to do... I really really love u alot nv hav I neen fall so dip... but now.. im... im in this whole alone... I don even hav strength to go out of this hole... hopefully without u can be more happy really... I just wan u to be happy.. n I don mind standing beside u n watching u smile...but now.. other then pian is still pian... im hurt badly...